the end, the beginning..

it’s over, ...finally. my all too important exams have ended
a feeling of joy and relief washed over me as i walked out of school today. but i just could not register the fact that it was less than two years ago that i had stood in front of the same institution attending the inauguration to mark the start of 11th. i think my thoughts were shared by the others as well, looking at the way all eyes gazed at the open school gates. the glee on our faces after the culmination of the exams was palpable. after all we were brave warriors who had walked through the murky valley of gloom and despair. with our indomitable spirit, we had overcome all odds and endured the harrowing days. ;)
ok, it wasn’t that bad. the papers were easy, easier than the previous years and my answers weren’t that bad. so life moves on now...
its summer and its hot and clammy in this part of the universe. but today we were endowed with a spell of rain and this has ensured that the temperature has fallen down to bearable levels; actually it has been a rather pleasant weather-not too hot and not too cold...no more, no less (like Henry, the penguin says in my sis’s cartoon). inspired by the precipitation we have received, I present my creative byte.

tasting the rain…

the raindrops green and blue,
fall on the roof, drop by drop.
they’re happy, they’re merry
they leap and hop
and skip and jump
till they are taken deep
Into the muddy brown mound.

soon sunshine dances on my face
as the new day calls to me,
a new hour, a new second…
and to making it last??
no, no! I want a new day everyday,
coz it’s boring if the sun only rose and set
and the merry clouds gave no rain.

my wings stretch far
and the wind sweeps through
i glide, I turn, I fly very far
through the vast expanse
of joyful sky, of that I’m sure.

little drops again envelope me
little drops of joy n hope.
the raindrops are still green and blue
with that fragrance, that freshness
it’s a new beginning to new joys.

Dorian grey, the last IAs and the mountain of motivation

yes I too should be doing work. lots of it. but at least i found a fitting quote in my O. Wilde research for the top of the blog- at least in this stage of our life.

an odd tale

so y exactly did i suddenly decide to squat down in front of the computer in between my all-so-important, life-deciding-destiny-changing exams and blog? ..
my complex mind is too hard to decipher so let me chuck the idea of trying to fathom my eccentric behaviour. (oh by the way, this is the indian counterpart)

so wat's going on in my lyf? a little this and a little that. not much too exciting or depressing (unless u count staying awake the whole night cramming chemical formulae into my all-so saturated brain as either of the two).

i am doing this cos my rebellious streak is telling me to jeopardise my math preparation and babble my way through the blog. there's some aura about exams that it's right at that time that you are inspired to do several other things, none of which includes sitting still at a desk and struggling your way through books that come in various hues and sizes. so right now i'm afflicted with this pathological nightmare where my brain has been taken over by litle leprachauns (Mr. Gravy's theory).

but pressure from external sources including that from that irritating little tiny voice in my head called conscience is ripping me away from by beloved blog(notwithstanding that i hvn't blogged for more than a yr). so i bid adieu until next time. ciao!!! keep thy frown upside down :)

procrastination and tatort

I havent blogged in... 3 months??? wow thats way too much. and way too much has happened to gulp it down in one huge blog bite sized gulp. in december I had huge stress finishin my Extended essay in chemistry. I had to miss school to go to the lab. Im just so happy its over.
then I went to istambul. for mun. it was one of the best muns ive been to. no the conference wasnt that great, but the people and the city and the completely different culture made it very special.
then I had "break" in which we, yet again had more trainign than real break, finished off by the first tournamen (we won it) and mock exams the next day.
january was over with mocks. and all the sudden we had our orals (last week) and now its already february break.

time flies much quicker than I want it to.

so why am i blogging all the sudden ? firstly because of chris, a good friend of mine who actually reads my ranting sometimes, who reminded me yesterday that I should blog more. and because im procrastinating my 4 lab reports i have to write until next week. Ill keep tis short and should go on doing chem.

lately I am a huge fan of a german actor called Jan Josef Liefers. Its going to be a small phase of glory, but his movies are soo funny! his most famous ones (at least inner country wise) are in a german criminal series called "tatort" the oldest criminal series of te country. It is built similar to CSI; ther are different towns. but instead of having each season a town, they alternate on a weekly basis. so theres one in berlin, leipzig, stuttgart, bodensee, köln, and most immportantly, Münster. and they are so much better than csi ... by the way.
so mr. liefers is playing a rather snobbish, elitarian pathologist. "the professor". he loves cars, listening to classical music at a very loud volume and has an opinion of everything. this character is contrasted by the superintendant "thiel", not only the last name of Jürgens flatmate, but also the complete oppsite in everything of proffessor boerne. and lastly boernes helper, Alberich, a short little woman (litterally short) that has the liscence of making as much fun of her boss than he of her.

"Alberich: "Jetzt kommen Sie mal wieder runter, Chef!"
(Get down /chill", proffessor)
Boerne: "Wohin? Auf Ihr Niveau etwa?"
(where? perhaps to your level?)
Bulle (lacht): "Der war gut."
(laughing - that was a good one)
Boerne: "Fanden Sie gut?"
(you thought that was good)
Bulle: "Der war komisch."
(that was funny)
Boerne: "Ah ja, was fanden Sie denn komisch?"
(right, what did you find funny?)
Bulle: "Na das mit dem Niveau und dem Runterkommen."
(well that with the getting down and the level)
Boerne: "Wollen Sie über meine Mitarbeiterin lustig machen?"
(do you want to make fun of my coworker?)
Bulle: "Nein, aber Sie haben doch gerade selber einen ..."
(no, but you yourself...)
Boerne: "Wenn sich hier einer lustig macht, dann bin ich das. Stimmt's, Alberich?"
(if anyone makes any fun of someone, then thats me. right alberich?)
Alberich: "Klar, Chef." (Klatschen sich ab) "Und umgekehrt."
(sure boss...and the other way around)
Boerne: "Genau." "
(exactly)

Standard formation world championship

the title tells everything about my last weekend. the WM was in ludwigsburg, organsied by my club. so I got to help out too! I was responsible for the second slowakian team: interklub bratislava. a very nice and fun team (that spoke english) and very nice trainers that spoke german. I was reponsible for them to be there on time, on the dance floor on time and had to do some little organisational things that had to be done.

the best thing was though that they got into the final round, and 6/8 there. the team was so happy, and I was very happy for them. oh yeah my club also became world champion, with all 1s. very cool, but i msut say that i found the running up teams extremely strong too. what was less cool was the aftershow party organsised by them: foreign clubs werent really welcome (well they said they were but it didnt feel like it). alcohol (and you know formation dancers love alcohol, especially sect) was very very expensive and there were a ton of grannys sitting about waiting for the home team to arrive. I fled as soon as possible. so did the winning team later, to a rather...lets say proximity of low order bar.

the great thing is i got to meet and see lots and lots of world class formations for free and up close: elblag form poland, vera tyumen from russia or braunschweig from northern germany, to name the top teams apart from the 1 tcl. it was a very special day, a great audience and amazing dancing. I must check whether im to be seen on tv :D

pictures to come

im 18. how weird is that?

18

I am on the verge of a nerve crisis. in less than 4 hours ill be 18.

18 the coming of age. a new part of your life. yes I think i am ready for that, but then again i am not very good for change, I seem to be cautious of changes. my childhood is over. officially. what a scary thought. since ever before i could remember I have refered to myself as a child. I remember the first time when I was spoken to as "sie" the formal you in german. I was bewildered as it did nto fit into my world conception. since a few years now I follow descartes: cogito ergo sum. I think therefore I am or simply: I am...but I am not. I am responsible but I dont feel like a dusty rusty boring grown up.

In four hours Ill have a ton of priviledges: ill be able to vote, drive a car(once I get a liscence), have all the alcohol I want, stay out all I want, work all I want and get punished all society wants. yeah the last not quite a priviledge.

it feels so awkward. I turned 16 yesterday, and now all the sudden im 18? the far away ominous 18 age all kids wish for and dread at the same time. im confused. I dont know what is to await me, and yet again I dont want to get older. especially not on a horrible day like tomorrow where all i get to do is write essays and study.

3 hours and 15 minutes. oh no the clock is ticking.

Stephan was right yesterday: you can only use the time once.