end of school

an entire year has passed. one more to go. this year the end of school felt completely different again. even though there was this urge to get out, which started even earlier than last year, we did have exams pretty much the last week. this meant that a last push was necessary. and all at once i was studying studying studying and all the sudden...POOF! schools out. I go to IMUNA, which I PGAd this year, I get my report card and i have off. that went way too fast for me, but I think another great problem is that unlike the other years where summer holidays were two months of trying hard to forget as much as possible, so hat our brains are like "squeaky clean sponges" (mr garvey, the mid IB break does not do that fr me. I cannot let go of school, even though I have been off for two weeks now.
maybe thats because of the homework, I have finished my third and last book for english yesterday, and now "all" I have to worry about are one english essay, one history project my flunked math paper 2 and especially my Extended Essay, all of which are vast (ok, tiny compared to exams but still) parts of my final IB grade.
school should be over, but effectively it is not. Its still the same people, with one exception, the same workload and hopefully the same teachers. we had class the last day and probably are going to continue just where we left off in august. on fluffy "hello welcome to the year stuff" .
Actually i dont want to press the "shut down" button, cuz i know what i do now i dont have to do later, when i want to do other things, like dance, study or sleep.