an odd tale

so y exactly did i suddenly decide to squat down in front of the computer in between my all-so-important, life-deciding-destiny-changing exams and blog? ..
my complex mind is too hard to decipher so let me chuck the idea of trying to fathom my eccentric behaviour. (oh by the way, this is the indian counterpart)

so wat's going on in my lyf? a little this and a little that. not much too exciting or depressing (unless u count staying awake the whole night cramming chemical formulae into my all-so saturated brain as either of the two).

i am doing this cos my rebellious streak is telling me to jeopardise my math preparation and babble my way through the blog. there's some aura about exams that it's right at that time that you are inspired to do several other things, none of which includes sitting still at a desk and struggling your way through books that come in various hues and sizes. so right now i'm afflicted with this pathological nightmare where my brain has been taken over by litle leprachauns (Mr. Gravy's theory).

but pressure from external sources including that from that irritating little tiny voice in my head called conscience is ripping me away from by beloved blog(notwithstanding that i hvn't blogged for more than a yr). so i bid adieu until next time. ciao!!! keep thy frown upside down :)

procrastination and tatort

I havent blogged in... 3 months??? wow thats way too much. and way too much has happened to gulp it down in one huge blog bite sized gulp. in december I had huge stress finishin my Extended essay in chemistry. I had to miss school to go to the lab. Im just so happy its over.
then I went to istambul. for mun. it was one of the best muns ive been to. no the conference wasnt that great, but the people and the city and the completely different culture made it very special.
then I had "break" in which we, yet again had more trainign than real break, finished off by the first tournamen (we won it) and mock exams the next day.
january was over with mocks. and all the sudden we had our orals (last week) and now its already february break.

time flies much quicker than I want it to.

so why am i blogging all the sudden ? firstly because of chris, a good friend of mine who actually reads my ranting sometimes, who reminded me yesterday that I should blog more. and because im procrastinating my 4 lab reports i have to write until next week. Ill keep tis short and should go on doing chem.

lately I am a huge fan of a german actor called Jan Josef Liefers. Its going to be a small phase of glory, but his movies are soo funny! his most famous ones (at least inner country wise) are in a german criminal series called "tatort" the oldest criminal series of te country. It is built similar to CSI; ther are different towns. but instead of having each season a town, they alternate on a weekly basis. so theres one in berlin, leipzig, stuttgart, bodensee, köln, and most immportantly, Münster. and they are so much better than csi ... by the way.
so mr. liefers is playing a rather snobbish, elitarian pathologist. "the professor". he loves cars, listening to classical music at a very loud volume and has an opinion of everything. this character is contrasted by the superintendant "thiel", not only the last name of Jürgens flatmate, but also the complete oppsite in everything of proffessor boerne. and lastly boernes helper, Alberich, a short little woman (litterally short) that has the liscence of making as much fun of her boss than he of her.

"Alberich: "Jetzt kommen Sie mal wieder runter, Chef!"
(Get down /chill", proffessor)
Boerne: "Wohin? Auf Ihr Niveau etwa?"
(where? perhaps to your level?)
Bulle (lacht): "Der war gut."
(laughing - that was a good one)
Boerne: "Fanden Sie gut?"
(you thought that was good)
Bulle: "Der war komisch."
(that was funny)
Boerne: "Ah ja, was fanden Sie denn komisch?"
(right, what did you find funny?)
Bulle: "Na das mit dem Niveau und dem Runterkommen."
(well that with the getting down and the level)
Boerne: "Wollen Sie über meine Mitarbeiterin lustig machen?"
(do you want to make fun of my coworker?)
Bulle: "Nein, aber Sie haben doch gerade selber einen ..."
(no, but you yourself...)
Boerne: "Wenn sich hier einer lustig macht, dann bin ich das. Stimmt's, Alberich?"
(if anyone makes any fun of someone, then thats me. right alberich?)
Alberich: "Klar, Chef." (Klatschen sich ab) "Und umgekehrt."
(sure boss...and the other way around)
Boerne: "Genau." "
(exactly)

Standard formation world championship

the title tells everything about my last weekend. the WM was in ludwigsburg, organsied by my club. so I got to help out too! I was responsible for the second slowakian team: interklub bratislava. a very nice and fun team (that spoke english) and very nice trainers that spoke german. I was reponsible for them to be there on time, on the dance floor on time and had to do some little organisational things that had to be done.

the best thing was though that they got into the final round, and 6/8 there. the team was so happy, and I was very happy for them. oh yeah my club also became world champion, with all 1s. very cool, but i msut say that i found the running up teams extremely strong too. what was less cool was the aftershow party organsised by them: foreign clubs werent really welcome (well they said they were but it didnt feel like it). alcohol (and you know formation dancers love alcohol, especially sect) was very very expensive and there were a ton of grannys sitting about waiting for the home team to arrive. I fled as soon as possible. so did the winning team later, to a rather...lets say proximity of low order bar.

the great thing is i got to meet and see lots and lots of world class formations for free and up close: elblag form poland, vera tyumen from russia or braunschweig from northern germany, to name the top teams apart from the 1 tcl. it was a very special day, a great audience and amazing dancing. I must check whether im to be seen on tv :D

pictures to come

im 18. how weird is that?

18

I am on the verge of a nerve crisis. in less than 4 hours ill be 18.

18 the coming of age. a new part of your life. yes I think i am ready for that, but then again i am not very good for change, I seem to be cautious of changes. my childhood is over. officially. what a scary thought. since ever before i could remember I have refered to myself as a child. I remember the first time when I was spoken to as "sie" the formal you in german. I was bewildered as it did nto fit into my world conception. since a few years now I follow descartes: cogito ergo sum. I think therefore I am or simply: I am...but I am not. I am responsible but I dont feel like a dusty rusty boring grown up.

In four hours Ill have a ton of priviledges: ill be able to vote, drive a car(once I get a liscence), have all the alcohol I want, stay out all I want, work all I want and get punished all society wants. yeah the last not quite a priviledge.

it feels so awkward. I turned 16 yesterday, and now all the sudden im 18? the far away ominous 18 age all kids wish for and dread at the same time. im confused. I dont know what is to await me, and yet again I dont want to get older. especially not on a horrible day like tomorrow where all i get to do is write essays and study.

3 hours and 15 minutes. oh no the clock is ticking.

Stephan was right yesterday: you can only use the time once.

IB, EE and more

school is eating meslowly in bits. its too much. i either lack motivation or it really is too much. i am dying for ome time for mysef, btu not getting it. well this week i am. i have fall holidays. "holidays" that is...actually i ahve time to do my EE my german world lit, my tok essay, my english essay, my history ia and oh yes, study for my meidcine test. *hellooo*???

I have spent my day today at the chemistry lab of a local company trying to piece together my EE. its going GREAT. (thats sarcastic) after 4 hours extraction and 30 minutes destillation I am left with some scraps of green muck glued to the wall of a flask. after scratching it off and pasting it onthe little crystal of the IR spectrometer i see...nothing.

Especially after my last reporst card I am utterly pessimistic about school. Im not doing well, Im not doing as well as i should be doing. bye bye medicine that is for me then. or i can already send off my application to hungary where they will take me with 28 points and a heap of money.

ok the youtube song is over. i need to get somehting of the many undone things together. tok yiipiiiee....?

what does the american constitution mean by not "abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press" (Bill of rights, article 1)? what can you really say? and why will some things you say get you into trouble (think of the denmark comics about Islam a few years ago if you need a dramatic exampe)? while others wont?

Despite taking history, I am by no means a well enough reounded expert on this topic to be able to discuss it, but I am still allowed to question and give my opinion. If my questioning is inconveniant, please excuse it by the fact I know no better.

I made a comment today, well more of a satirical snigger about some current affairs. It was one of the comments where you say: yeah I can see where you are coming from, but of course that is so over the top, ill acknowledge and dismiss. you have your fun and forget it-usually. but instead I got a lecture: youd get real problems if you said that in the wrong place. But it was not meant seriously?! was my reaction. Of course it was outrageous, over the top and hugely insensitive, I was aware of that all along, but that was the point, to get the point across. so why is it often so missunderstood? and why is it so difficult to express ideas and then disclaim them; people always end up saying you said them.
People so easily get offended by a blunt truth not packaged correctly? In the healthcare system I can understand that, and have witnessed the difference wording can make myself. In society, and the way it works, and especially about other people I believe that it is much easier to acknowledge something worded more straightforewardly than about yourself. again I think you can acknowledge and get on with it.
I am being deliberately vague. and yes I believe I need to justify myself even though the lecturer probably will never read this. enough of a tok rant. back to work now.